After a year, Kehlani is still on rotation. But this morning, the song 'The Letter' really touch my heart. Honestly, when I say let's get personal I really meant it. I want to share my life story, I'm done keeping it all to myself. I've realized that I sleep a little better when I share, I breathe a little lighter when I let go...
Without sounding preachy, I just want to remind myself and my reader that even when you're feeling like you're at the lowest point in your life, worthless and like no one in this world loves you or care about you, the universe is there, your creator is there to watch over you, I believe that God is there, he's closer than my own veins. My mother always taught me to be grateful, to say what I'm grateful for when waking up in the morning and going to bed at night.
This morning I realize that I wake up today, I'm still alive, I'm healthy and that means I have purpose. I have purpose in life that God wants me to do. God knows that I can do it, I'm not done yet and I have all the power in me to finish it. I, sometimes, don't know what it is. I get lost. But I know that it's just life. You get lost, you'll find the way, you'll learn from your mistakes and you're one step closer to what's meant for you.
I try to remind myself all that,when things go wrong or when people doubt me...
The first person that ever doubted me was supposed to be my hero, the one person that I should have a special relationship ever since I was a lil girl, the person that I should be able to go to every time I have problem and will fight for me no matter what.
But then again, sometimes it's just what the society wants you to think or things don't go as how you wanted. You just have to make it work.
I'm not mad, I'm not sad... In that moment, I realized that things might go differently sometimes but as long as you're happy, you ain't got nothin' to worry about.
Let the reality sink in, let it knocks the wind out of you then move on.